I was just thinking about the meaning of some words. Happy New Year.
We see people using them together a lot this time of the year, even we, use them. But, have you ever wondered what exactly do they mean? It's automatic, we say it when everybody is drowning in hugs and such, and, it's good to say good things to people. But, what if we only say it because... ''everybody does''?
I've been recently thinking a lot about these word meanings, those phrases we say... automatically.
Well, a new year is coming, and these are 12 months, hundreds of days, and, that's quite a lot of time. Ok, no one would say ''Have a bad new year!'', since this would probably ruin the party. But on their depths, they wish they could say it. Then they say the opposite because... we don't want to ruin a fuckin' party do we? And, after all, it's just automatic to wish good things to others.
Man, this was one hell of a fucked up year. Not a hundred percent bad but, it's good it's over. Anyway, like it was said before, we need to fall to learn to pick ourselves up, which was pretty true this year, and I'm glad I found the ones I could really trust in this chaos.
Moreover, I'd like to wish these 12 months of good things to all who I appreciate. I don't need to say names, these people will know in case they read this.
This year dies today.
quarta-feira, 31 de dezembro de 2008
terça-feira, 23 de dezembro de 2008
Redemption
And so, it's Christmas.
Well, not yet, but, I won't be able to post this during Christmas, so I'll post now.
It's pretty simple, so do not expect much, and I'm writing this in english because... uh... I prefer to write like this.
I would like to thank, all the people that helped me reaching the end of this year. I know I'm not over dramatizing here. And, I never really told people how cool they actually were. It's matterless what others might think, and I guess sometimes I may have forgotten this. I really hope I don't forget anyone. Please forgive me if I do.
First of all, thanks for the guys of Granado Espada. Yeah, I've given up of the battle, it's just too much for me. But, I'm actually glad I tried. You guys were freakin' awesome, I laughed to death at those crazed nights playing with you all. Raiding was also amazing, it was damn hard for us to do something, but we did. Oh hell, we did.
Special thanks for Winks, who was the craziest one among us all. Our second leader, even though he wasn't the best leader there was, he managed to make the game fun while it could last. He told me not to give up some months ago, even though he was weak, well, we all were, he had the will to keep on fighting. Losstaroth also, who fought with us at those maps... well, we didn't get anything amazing, but at least we had a lot of fun talking crap for hours. Also, for being funny in his weird way. Tuatha, for being a nice friend and also the most honest player I've ever met. And also one of the strongest among us, yeah, we might not be even close to the really strong people at the server, but, we were playing with pure raw power, not money. SilvaRamos, for being our elder, and helping us with financial situations. Working and playing, and he managed to be damn strong. DoButeco, for showing me one the best animes I've ever seen, for being one of the funniest guys in there. For playing just for the fun. Scarcelli, for trusting me his account for such a long time. Fatalstrike, for being my raid partner, we fought harsh battles with such lousy equipments, and won. The most unusual raid partners. I'd like to thank Kuza, Kura, Ibra, Hazz, Bahia, Rigoti, Kyle, and many others who took a part on the faction story. Thanks for making me feel useful, I did my best on researching and helping you all.
Now, the circle. My Secret Movie Circle. I say my for I'm the leader, but it's yours as much as it's mine. I couldn't lead a group without members. Well, I hope you guys had fun on this wicked semester. Because I had. I was once told I was putting too much effort to keep people together making all those meetings. Well, the circle was one of the things that kept me going, without it things would be much worse by now. So, this may sound selfish, but I did it mostly because I needed it. But, it's also undeniable that I wanted you all to have fun, I had some bigger plans for the group, well, I still have, but this is something for the future. At the circle I found friends that could support me on the harsh moments, even though I didn't say those were harsh moments. And also laugh a lot at the nice times. I'd like to give special thanks for Mario and Pedro, the guys who were up to almost any meeting I organized. Organized may not be the best term, since most of the time we had unexpected reunions, but, I prefer this way. So, keep on rocking guys, I'm glad I could lead this group, and I hope we have many more events next year.
I want to thank also the people that participated at those crazy group talks at the messenger. Indeed, I didn't know them and I might not talk to them again, but it was fun as hell to talk nonsense with them all.
Now, for the single person awards.
I'd like to thank Ludmila, for trying to help on the bad moments, for being a sincere friend, no matter if it hurted. I'll try to accomplish some of the objectives, I promise.
And also, Nazgul, yeah I know he won't use this nickname anymore but, I don't care. He's been my friend for years now, and it's nice to have someone like him to count with. It's really good to talk to someone who can understand your troubles, and also, has many ideas in common with yours. The bad part is that I couldn't help most of time when he was in trouble... I hope I can turn the tables someday.
Bruno also, one of the few who can help in controlling the rage. One of the best friends I have found, he's an amazing friend. Also, I had never seen someone with a such a will for overcoming difficulties. And I don't give a damn it he uses it mostly for studying. It's something I admire in him, it's not easy to find people like that. Well, I really have to thank him for all his patience. And for his help, don't worry man, you did even more than what you should.
Bruno is one of the members of the circle, but I preferred to thank him in this part. As an other member of the circle. She may probably be thinking why didn't I mention her in this text, well, I'd say it's all part of the plan. Thanks for Juliana, she has shown to be a great friend this year, one of those who helped me reaching this place without greater damages. Appearing out of thin air at times, but it was good. I can just say thank you. May crazy ideas come in bunches next year.
I guess that's it. This was one wicked year, let's just head for the next one. As I said before, forgive me if someone was left out of this message. Merry christmas to you all.
Well, not yet, but, I won't be able to post this during Christmas, so I'll post now.
It's pretty simple, so do not expect much, and I'm writing this in english because... uh... I prefer to write like this.
I would like to thank, all the people that helped me reaching the end of this year. I know I'm not over dramatizing here. And, I never really told people how cool they actually were. It's matterless what others might think, and I guess sometimes I may have forgotten this. I really hope I don't forget anyone. Please forgive me if I do.
First of all, thanks for the guys of Granado Espada. Yeah, I've given up of the battle, it's just too much for me. But, I'm actually glad I tried. You guys were freakin' awesome, I laughed to death at those crazed nights playing with you all. Raiding was also amazing, it was damn hard for us to do something, but we did. Oh hell, we did.
Special thanks for Winks, who was the craziest one among us all. Our second leader, even though he wasn't the best leader there was, he managed to make the game fun while it could last. He told me not to give up some months ago, even though he was weak, well, we all were, he had the will to keep on fighting. Losstaroth also, who fought with us at those maps... well, we didn't get anything amazing, but at least we had a lot of fun talking crap for hours. Also, for being funny in his weird way. Tuatha, for being a nice friend and also the most honest player I've ever met. And also one of the strongest among us, yeah, we might not be even close to the really strong people at the server, but, we were playing with pure raw power, not money. SilvaRamos, for being our elder, and helping us with financial situations. Working and playing, and he managed to be damn strong. DoButeco, for showing me one the best animes I've ever seen, for being one of the funniest guys in there. For playing just for the fun. Scarcelli, for trusting me his account for such a long time. Fatalstrike, for being my raid partner, we fought harsh battles with such lousy equipments, and won. The most unusual raid partners. I'd like to thank Kuza, Kura, Ibra, Hazz, Bahia, Rigoti, Kyle, and many others who took a part on the faction story. Thanks for making me feel useful, I did my best on researching and helping you all.
Now, the circle. My Secret Movie Circle. I say my for I'm the leader, but it's yours as much as it's mine. I couldn't lead a group without members. Well, I hope you guys had fun on this wicked semester. Because I had. I was once told I was putting too much effort to keep people together making all those meetings. Well, the circle was one of the things that kept me going, without it things would be much worse by now. So, this may sound selfish, but I did it mostly because I needed it. But, it's also undeniable that I wanted you all to have fun, I had some bigger plans for the group, well, I still have, but this is something for the future. At the circle I found friends that could support me on the harsh moments, even though I didn't say those were harsh moments. And also laugh a lot at the nice times. I'd like to give special thanks for Mario and Pedro, the guys who were up to almost any meeting I organized. Organized may not be the best term, since most of the time we had unexpected reunions, but, I prefer this way. So, keep on rocking guys, I'm glad I could lead this group, and I hope we have many more events next year.
I want to thank also the people that participated at those crazy group talks at the messenger. Indeed, I didn't know them and I might not talk to them again, but it was fun as hell to talk nonsense with them all.
Now, for the single person awards.
I'd like to thank Ludmila, for trying to help on the bad moments, for being a sincere friend, no matter if it hurted. I'll try to accomplish some of the objectives, I promise.
And also, Nazgul, yeah I know he won't use this nickname anymore but, I don't care. He's been my friend for years now, and it's nice to have someone like him to count with. It's really good to talk to someone who can understand your troubles, and also, has many ideas in common with yours. The bad part is that I couldn't help most of time when he was in trouble... I hope I can turn the tables someday.
Bruno also, one of the few who can help in controlling the rage. One of the best friends I have found, he's an amazing friend. Also, I had never seen someone with a such a will for overcoming difficulties. And I don't give a damn it he uses it mostly for studying. It's something I admire in him, it's not easy to find people like that. Well, I really have to thank him for all his patience. And for his help, don't worry man, you did even more than what you should.
Bruno is one of the members of the circle, but I preferred to thank him in this part. As an other member of the circle. She may probably be thinking why didn't I mention her in this text, well, I'd say it's all part of the plan. Thanks for Juliana, she has shown to be a great friend this year, one of those who helped me reaching this place without greater damages. Appearing out of thin air at times, but it was good. I can just say thank you. May crazy ideas come in bunches next year.
I guess that's it. This was one wicked year, let's just head for the next one. As I said before, forgive me if someone was left out of this message. Merry christmas to you all.
segunda-feira, 22 de dezembro de 2008
To you
Eu não sei exatamente o que aconteceu, mas tudo o que eu tinha escrito sumiu do nada.
De qualquer forma, eu não desisto de escrever de novo, porque já devia ter dito isso há muito tempo, e mesmo se desaparecer mais uma vez, eu volto aqui e escrevo do começo. Até que eu consiga, porque não importa o que aconteça, eu tenho que dizer isso.
Talvez isso seja uma coisa boa já que agora eu posso escrever mais e pensar mais nas coisas que tenho de escrever. Não que eu não tenha pensado no que estou escrevendo, mas eu quero que fique bom. Porque, você merece o melhor, e aqui vai minha segunda tentativa.
Eu realmente, falhei. Eu falhei em não ter te abraçado o tanto que devia, o tanto que eu podia. Eu falhei em não fazer você sentir quão especial você era pra mim. E falhei em não dizer aquelas três palavras o tanto quanto devia. "Eu te amo". Não são apenas três palavras juntas, tem muito mais do que isso. Representa o quanto eu gostaria de passar o resto da minha vida ao seu lado, fazendo cada dia ser único, não importa o quanto isso custasse. Também, quão feliz você me fazia, apenas com um sorriso. Porque, tem algo no seu sorriso, e eu desejaria sempre poder vê-lo, e também, poder ser quem te faz sorrir. Seu sorriso não deve nunca alcançar olhos cegos, nem suas palavras devem acabar perdidas no ar. Eles são bons demais pra isso. Gostaria de poder dormir e acordar ao seu lado, isso me fez repensar minha raiva em relação a dormir, eu apenas não acho que eu tenha deixado claro quão importante aquilo era pra mim, quão importante você era pra mim.
Eu não quero que isso termine como um pedido de desculpas, mesmo que eu sinta como se estivesse fazendo isso, em parte. Eu queria dizer o que você sempre mereceu ouvir, e algo mais, mesmo que seja tarde. Eu fui estúpido em segurar isso, e não te tratar como você deveria ser tratada. Eu sempre disse que eu só dava valor pras coisas depois de perdê-las, e parece que, mesmo tentando mudar isso, acabei repetindo o mesmo erro. Sinto que "coisa" não é o termo certo, você é muito mais do que isso, eu só não achei uma outra palavra melhor pra essa frase.
Continuando, gostaria também de te agradecer. Agradecer pelo seu amor, pelo seu apoio. Por acreditar em mim, isso me fazia querer melhorar, só pra sentir que eu merecia tudo isso. Obrigado pelas coisas que você me ensinou, mesmo que você na verdade nem saiba que tenha ensinado, porque isso me ajudou a crescer. Mesmo que eu não tenha melhorado o tanto quanto devia, mas foi importante. Mesmo nos momentos difíceis, você me mostrou jeitos de melhorar. A verdade é, que eu não consigo achar palavras pra te falar o quanto eu gostaria de agradecer, só espero que tenha conseguido deixar isso claro.
Como eu já disse, eu não guardo mágoa de você. Eu quero que você seja feliz, mantenha aquela alegria que eu podia ver em seus olhos, por favor. Escrevi isso aqui porque não acho que você gostaria de ouvir isso pessoalmente. Eu respeito isso. Mas também senti a necessidade de falar essas coisas, então decidi colocar aqui.
Você me disse que não queria que eu guardasse raiva de você porque você se importava com a minha opinião. Bom, eu digo o mesmo. Eu sei, nós dois cometemos erros, mas eu estava cego demais para ver que errava. Cego porque eu dava atenção pro que não era realmente importante. E demorou muito para que eu pudesse ver. Mais do que isso, eu tive de perder uma das coisas de mais valor que eu tinha, que era ter você ao meu lado. Eu admito, eu falhei.
Já estou chegando no fim dessa mensagem, e ainda me faltam palavras pra dizer quão importante você era. Você foi a mulher mais atenciosa, amável, bonita, e inteligente que eu já tive o prazer de conhecer. Eu precisava dizer, mas ainda assim você é mais que isso, e eu quero que você se lembre disso ok?
Não posso ignorar que queria que você lesse isso. Mesmo se eu te mostrar, por favor não fique triste nem algo assim, eu só queria passar essa mensagem, que por tanto tempo eu segurei sem razão nenhuma. Escolha o jeito que você viva melhor, você merece. Eu gostaria de poder continuar ao seu lado nesta sua escolha, mas isso é algo que não depende só de mim. Eu ainda te amo, mesmo que eu não tenha mostrado isso o tanto que devia. Apenas, se cuide.
I don't know exactly what just happened, but my whole post just got blown up from nowhere.
Anyway, I'm not giving up on writing it again, for I should have said it a long time ago, and even if it disappears once again, I'll just come and write it from the beginning. Until I get it done, because no matter what happens, I have to say it.
Perhaps this is a good thing as I can now write more and think more on the things I need to write. Not that I haven't thought about what I'm writing, but I just need to make it good. Because, you deserve the best, and here goes my second try.
I have indeed, failed. I failed on not hugging you as much as I should, as much I could. I failed on not making you feel just how special you were to me. And failed on not saying those three words as loud and as much as I had to. "I love you". Those aren't just three words bond together, there's much more than that. It represents how much I would like to spend the rest of my life by your side, making every single day unique, no matter what it cost. Also, how happy you made me, with just a smile. Because, there's something to your smile, and I wish I could always see it, and also, be the one that made you smile. It must never reach blind eyes, nor your words reach deaf ears. They are just too good for that. Also, how I wish I could sleep by your side, and wake up by your side, that made me rethink my anger toward sleeping, I just don't think I made it clear how important that was to me, how important you were to me.
I don't want this to end as an apologize, even though I feel like doing this in part. I wanted to say all what you deserved to hear, and something else, as late as it may be. I was stupid for holding this, and for not treating you as you deserved. I've always said that I gave value to things when they were gone, and it seems like, even though I tried to change it, I made the same mistake. I gotta say that ''thing'' is not the correct term in this case, since you are much more than that, it's just that I couldn't find another word to that phrase.
Moreover, I would like to thank you. Thank you for all your love, all your support. For believing in me, that made me want to get better, just to really feel I deserved it. Thank you for the things you teached me, even though you might actually not tried to teach it, you've teached me a lot of things, that helped me in growing up, and getting better. Even though I might not have improved as much as I should, but this was important. Even at the harsh moments, you've shown me ways to improve. The truth is, I can't find words to tell you how much I would like to thank you, I can just hope that my message was given.
I've said before, and I repeat, I'm not holding grief against you. I want you to be happy, I want you to keep that joy in your eyes, please. I'm writing this in here because I don't think you would like to hear this directly. I respect that. But also I felt the need to say all this, so, I'll keep it here.
You've told me that you didn't want me to hold anger against you because you cared about my opinion. Well, I tell you the same. I know, we both made mistakes, but I was too blind for seeing my mistakes. Blind because I gave attention to what wasn't really worth. And it took me much time to see it. More than that, I had to lose one of things that were most worthy, that was having you by my side. I admit it, I have really failed.
As I come to finish my message, I still lack of words to say how important you were. You were the most attentious, lovable, beautiful, intelligent woman I ever had the pleasure to meet. I needed to say it, but still you are more than that, and I want you to always keep that in mind, ok?
I can't ignore I would like you to read this. But still, even if I show you this, please don't feel sad or something like that, I just wanted to give my words, the words I've been stupidly holding for so long. Just choose the way you live happier, you deserve it. I wish I could walk that way by your side, but this is really up to you. I still love you, even though I didn't show it as much as I should. Just, take care.
De qualquer forma, eu não desisto de escrever de novo, porque já devia ter dito isso há muito tempo, e mesmo se desaparecer mais uma vez, eu volto aqui e escrevo do começo. Até que eu consiga, porque não importa o que aconteça, eu tenho que dizer isso.
Talvez isso seja uma coisa boa já que agora eu posso escrever mais e pensar mais nas coisas que tenho de escrever. Não que eu não tenha pensado no que estou escrevendo, mas eu quero que fique bom. Porque, você merece o melhor, e aqui vai minha segunda tentativa.
Eu realmente, falhei. Eu falhei em não ter te abraçado o tanto que devia, o tanto que eu podia. Eu falhei em não fazer você sentir quão especial você era pra mim. E falhei em não dizer aquelas três palavras o tanto quanto devia. "Eu te amo". Não são apenas três palavras juntas, tem muito mais do que isso. Representa o quanto eu gostaria de passar o resto da minha vida ao seu lado, fazendo cada dia ser único, não importa o quanto isso custasse. Também, quão feliz você me fazia, apenas com um sorriso. Porque, tem algo no seu sorriso, e eu desejaria sempre poder vê-lo, e também, poder ser quem te faz sorrir. Seu sorriso não deve nunca alcançar olhos cegos, nem suas palavras devem acabar perdidas no ar. Eles são bons demais pra isso. Gostaria de poder dormir e acordar ao seu lado, isso me fez repensar minha raiva em relação a dormir, eu apenas não acho que eu tenha deixado claro quão importante aquilo era pra mim, quão importante você era pra mim.
Eu não quero que isso termine como um pedido de desculpas, mesmo que eu sinta como se estivesse fazendo isso, em parte. Eu queria dizer o que você sempre mereceu ouvir, e algo mais, mesmo que seja tarde. Eu fui estúpido em segurar isso, e não te tratar como você deveria ser tratada. Eu sempre disse que eu só dava valor pras coisas depois de perdê-las, e parece que, mesmo tentando mudar isso, acabei repetindo o mesmo erro. Sinto que "coisa" não é o termo certo, você é muito mais do que isso, eu só não achei uma outra palavra melhor pra essa frase.
Continuando, gostaria também de te agradecer. Agradecer pelo seu amor, pelo seu apoio. Por acreditar em mim, isso me fazia querer melhorar, só pra sentir que eu merecia tudo isso. Obrigado pelas coisas que você me ensinou, mesmo que você na verdade nem saiba que tenha ensinado, porque isso me ajudou a crescer. Mesmo que eu não tenha melhorado o tanto quanto devia, mas foi importante. Mesmo nos momentos difíceis, você me mostrou jeitos de melhorar. A verdade é, que eu não consigo achar palavras pra te falar o quanto eu gostaria de agradecer, só espero que tenha conseguido deixar isso claro.
Como eu já disse, eu não guardo mágoa de você. Eu quero que você seja feliz, mantenha aquela alegria que eu podia ver em seus olhos, por favor. Escrevi isso aqui porque não acho que você gostaria de ouvir isso pessoalmente. Eu respeito isso. Mas também senti a necessidade de falar essas coisas, então decidi colocar aqui.
Você me disse que não queria que eu guardasse raiva de você porque você se importava com a minha opinião. Bom, eu digo o mesmo. Eu sei, nós dois cometemos erros, mas eu estava cego demais para ver que errava. Cego porque eu dava atenção pro que não era realmente importante. E demorou muito para que eu pudesse ver. Mais do que isso, eu tive de perder uma das coisas de mais valor que eu tinha, que era ter você ao meu lado. Eu admito, eu falhei.
Já estou chegando no fim dessa mensagem, e ainda me faltam palavras pra dizer quão importante você era. Você foi a mulher mais atenciosa, amável, bonita, e inteligente que eu já tive o prazer de conhecer. Eu precisava dizer, mas ainda assim você é mais que isso, e eu quero que você se lembre disso ok?
Não posso ignorar que queria que você lesse isso. Mesmo se eu te mostrar, por favor não fique triste nem algo assim, eu só queria passar essa mensagem, que por tanto tempo eu segurei sem razão nenhuma. Escolha o jeito que você viva melhor, você merece. Eu gostaria de poder continuar ao seu lado nesta sua escolha, mas isso é algo que não depende só de mim. Eu ainda te amo, mesmo que eu não tenha mostrado isso o tanto que devia. Apenas, se cuide.
I don't know exactly what just happened, but my whole post just got blown up from nowhere.
Anyway, I'm not giving up on writing it again, for I should have said it a long time ago, and even if it disappears once again, I'll just come and write it from the beginning. Until I get it done, because no matter what happens, I have to say it.
Perhaps this is a good thing as I can now write more and think more on the things I need to write. Not that I haven't thought about what I'm writing, but I just need to make it good. Because, you deserve the best, and here goes my second try.
I have indeed, failed. I failed on not hugging you as much as I should, as much I could. I failed on not making you feel just how special you were to me. And failed on not saying those three words as loud and as much as I had to. "I love you". Those aren't just three words bond together, there's much more than that. It represents how much I would like to spend the rest of my life by your side, making every single day unique, no matter what it cost. Also, how happy you made me, with just a smile. Because, there's something to your smile, and I wish I could always see it, and also, be the one that made you smile. It must never reach blind eyes, nor your words reach deaf ears. They are just too good for that. Also, how I wish I could sleep by your side, and wake up by your side, that made me rethink my anger toward sleeping, I just don't think I made it clear how important that was to me, how important you were to me.
I don't want this to end as an apologize, even though I feel like doing this in part. I wanted to say all what you deserved to hear, and something else, as late as it may be. I was stupid for holding this, and for not treating you as you deserved. I've always said that I gave value to things when they were gone, and it seems like, even though I tried to change it, I made the same mistake. I gotta say that ''thing'' is not the correct term in this case, since you are much more than that, it's just that I couldn't find another word to that phrase.
Moreover, I would like to thank you. Thank you for all your love, all your support. For believing in me, that made me want to get better, just to really feel I deserved it. Thank you for the things you teached me, even though you might actually not tried to teach it, you've teached me a lot of things, that helped me in growing up, and getting better. Even though I might not have improved as much as I should, but this was important. Even at the harsh moments, you've shown me ways to improve. The truth is, I can't find words to tell you how much I would like to thank you, I can just hope that my message was given.
I've said before, and I repeat, I'm not holding grief against you. I want you to be happy, I want you to keep that joy in your eyes, please. I'm writing this in here because I don't think you would like to hear this directly. I respect that. But also I felt the need to say all this, so, I'll keep it here.
You've told me that you didn't want me to hold anger against you because you cared about my opinion. Well, I tell you the same. I know, we both made mistakes, but I was too blind for seeing my mistakes. Blind because I gave attention to what wasn't really worth. And it took me much time to see it. More than that, I had to lose one of things that were most worthy, that was having you by my side. I admit it, I have really failed.
As I come to finish my message, I still lack of words to say how important you were. You were the most attentious, lovable, beautiful, intelligent woman I ever had the pleasure to meet. I needed to say it, but still you are more than that, and I want you to always keep that in mind, ok?
I can't ignore I would like you to read this. But still, even if I show you this, please don't feel sad or something like that, I just wanted to give my words, the words I've been stupidly holding for so long. Just choose the way you live happier, you deserve it. I wish I could walk that way by your side, but this is really up to you. I still love you, even though I didn't show it as much as I should. Just, take care.
sexta-feira, 19 de dezembro de 2008
Sangre Mar
When... every... single... droplet... can... explode... the ocean...
This is not my anger. This is not what I control... but I refuse to be controlled.
God damn it, this is crazy. So many things in your head and you can't even fucking think about them, and your hands don't seem to work for you, this is funny because they should, but they aren't, AND WHY AREN'T THEY?
HAHAHAHAHAHA
You feel like laughing don't you? Stupid. This is insane.
I can't explain it because you can't see what I see, I don't know. It's always been here and it's fucking stupid. I want to break things I want to smash things I just can't be here.
HAHAHAHAHA BURN MOTHERFUCKER
I don't know, do something, stop being so coward STOP BEING SO FREAKING COWARD YOU RETARD
WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM??
This is madness man
HIHIHI AND NOW I KILL YOU, I'LL KILL YOU ALL
You feel like spanking them to death don't you?
I would like to break things to do this stuff
But they are here, I can't make them worried
Perhaps if I go somewhere I can do it
SCREM IDIOT SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM WHY THE FUCK YOU DON'T SCREAM
I like this desert city
SHUT THE FUCK UP
SEE? THIS IS YOUR BLOOD, YOU DIE! LIKE THEM ALL
Haha blue
Feels like smashing this table with your hand right, while they keep on killing themselves, they always do it
And there's this crazy weirdo drooling with his red eyes
So weeeeeeeeeird.
I've never really set myself free right?
Yeah there was always control.
Subtle, but there was. Although you did some impressive job, lately.
NOT ENOUGH.
Well, what's enough for you? You ask yourself to do things that are way beyond do-able you know.
WEAK SHIT
I'm not killing anyone
UNTIL CHRISTMAS, LOOK, LOOK AT ME
LOOOOOOOK AT ME, WE SAME YOU KNOW
YOU'RE GETTING WORSE AS TIME GOES ON, YOU'LL BE JUST LIKE ME
I can't break this fucking table
HYAHYAHYAHYAHYA
Slams head on table
SLAM SLAM SLAM
TILL YOU HAVE NO MORE HEAD
But hey, you're leaving your mark in this world... though it can be cleaned...
DO NOT make this face, like you were deeply thinking
You're right, they can get worried right
AND WE DON'T WANT THEY TALKING
BECAUSE THEY TALK
OH THEY TALK... TOO MUCH... WHY DON'T THEY STOP TALKING KID?
drooooooolls
Ew, what a mess
Free yourself!
FUCK THEM ALL
THEY SUCK LIKE THEIR ANCESTORS
IT'S YOU WHAT MATTERS MY FRIEND, YOU
YOU'RE DIFFERENT, KILL THEM, SLAY THEM, HUMILIATE THEM
I don't know I just wanted to slam my hand somewhere
SCREEEEEEEAM
Till your lungs burst
I like bursts...
THEY ARE WRONG, NOT YOU
YOU'VE ALWAYS BEEN WRONG AND THEY MESSED UP WITH YOU
LOOK AT YOU NOW LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOK AT YOU NOW
Yeah, I'll just keep slapping you in the face till you look, and you know, you gave me the whole freakin eternity...
FREE FREE FREE
We look nuts don't we? You made us this way
This is pathetic.
I don't know man this is for you, fuck them, it's you the king now.
Atitude man, atituuuuuude.
You don't want it? You just don't do it.
Seems like this christmas won't be that good
LOOOOK AT YOU YOU LOOK LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT AND WE STILL HAVE SOME DAYS AHEAD
HAHAHAHAHA IMAGINE HOW YOU WILL BE FOR NEW YEAR'S DAY
I wish I were stronger.
Yeah we know, we can work on that
FUCK THEM ALL
WHY THE FUCK ARE THEY STILL MAKING NOISE
SHUUUUUUUUUT THE FUCK UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUP RETARDS
So much hidden inside hehe.
You can't pass it here but you can show it by your acts CMON SHOW IT SHOW IT
DO SOMETHING
KILL HER
U R AN IDIOT SIR
She's your sister don't kill her
MAKE SHE QUIET THEN, SILENCE
DON'T THESE MOTHERFUCKERS KNOW SILENCE???
Deranged hihihi
From this point on, we just go more and more down hill...
Stop smiling.
We can burst our hands hitting this table then, when no one is home so you don't worry them
REEEETARD
SMASH SMASH SMASH
YOU CAAAAAAANT DO WHAT YOU SAY
ARE YOU AFRAID OF JAIL? DUN WORRY, THESE FUCKERS WON'T EVEN NOTICE
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHUAHUAHAUAHUAHAUHAUAHAUAHU
This is not my anger. This is not what I control... but I refuse to be controlled.
God damn it, this is crazy. So many things in your head and you can't even fucking think about them, and your hands don't seem to work for you, this is funny because they should, but they aren't, AND WHY AREN'T THEY?
HAHAHAHAHAHA
You feel like laughing don't you? Stupid. This is insane.
I can't explain it because you can't see what I see, I don't know. It's always been here and it's fucking stupid. I want to break things I want to smash things I just can't be here.
HAHAHAHAHA BURN MOTHERFUCKER
I don't know, do something, stop being so coward STOP BEING SO FREAKING COWARD YOU RETARD
WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM??
This is madness man
HIHIHI AND NOW I KILL YOU, I'LL KILL YOU ALL
You feel like spanking them to death don't you?
I would like to break things to do this stuff
But they are here, I can't make them worried
Perhaps if I go somewhere I can do it
SCREM IDIOT SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM WHY THE FUCK YOU DON'T SCREAM
I like this desert city
SHUT THE FUCK UP
SEE? THIS IS YOUR BLOOD, YOU DIE! LIKE THEM ALL
Haha blue
Feels like smashing this table with your hand right, while they keep on killing themselves, they always do it
And there's this crazy weirdo drooling with his red eyes
So weeeeeeeeeird.
I've never really set myself free right?
Yeah there was always control.
Subtle, but there was. Although you did some impressive job, lately.
NOT ENOUGH.
Well, what's enough for you? You ask yourself to do things that are way beyond do-able you know.
WEAK SHIT
I'm not killing anyone
UNTIL CHRISTMAS, LOOK, LOOK AT ME
LOOOOOOOK AT ME, WE SAME YOU KNOW
YOU'RE GETTING WORSE AS TIME GOES ON, YOU'LL BE JUST LIKE ME
I can't break this fucking table
HYAHYAHYAHYAHYA
Slams head on table
SLAM SLAM SLAM
TILL YOU HAVE NO MORE HEAD
But hey, you're leaving your mark in this world... though it can be cleaned...
DO NOT make this face, like you were deeply thinking
You're right, they can get worried right
AND WE DON'T WANT THEY TALKING
BECAUSE THEY TALK
OH THEY TALK... TOO MUCH... WHY DON'T THEY STOP TALKING KID?
drooooooolls
Ew, what a mess
Free yourself!
FUCK THEM ALL
THEY SUCK LIKE THEIR ANCESTORS
IT'S YOU WHAT MATTERS MY FRIEND, YOU
YOU'RE DIFFERENT, KILL THEM, SLAY THEM, HUMILIATE THEM
I don't know I just wanted to slam my hand somewhere
SCREEEEEEEAM
Till your lungs burst
I like bursts...
THEY ARE WRONG, NOT YOU
YOU'VE ALWAYS BEEN WRONG AND THEY MESSED UP WITH YOU
LOOK AT YOU NOW LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOK AT YOU NOW
Yeah, I'll just keep slapping you in the face till you look, and you know, you gave me the whole freakin eternity...
FREE FREE FREE
We look nuts don't we? You made us this way
This is pathetic.
I don't know man this is for you, fuck them, it's you the king now.
Atitude man, atituuuuuude.
You don't want it? You just don't do it.
Seems like this christmas won't be that good
LOOOOK AT YOU YOU LOOK LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT AND WE STILL HAVE SOME DAYS AHEAD
HAHAHAHAHA IMAGINE HOW YOU WILL BE FOR NEW YEAR'S DAY
I wish I were stronger.
Yeah we know, we can work on that
FUCK THEM ALL
WHY THE FUCK ARE THEY STILL MAKING NOISE
SHUUUUUUUUUT THE FUCK UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUP RETARDS
So much hidden inside hehe.
You can't pass it here but you can show it by your acts CMON SHOW IT SHOW IT
DO SOMETHING
KILL HER
U R AN IDIOT SIR
She's your sister don't kill her
MAKE SHE QUIET THEN, SILENCE
DON'T THESE MOTHERFUCKERS KNOW SILENCE???
Deranged hihihi
From this point on, we just go more and more down hill...
Stop smiling.
We can burst our hands hitting this table then, when no one is home so you don't worry them
REEEETARD
SMASH SMASH SMASH
YOU CAAAAAAANT DO WHAT YOU SAY
ARE YOU AFRAID OF JAIL? DUN WORRY, THESE FUCKERS WON'T EVEN NOTICE
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHUAHUAHAUAHUAHAUHAUAHAUAHU
quarta-feira, 10 de dezembro de 2008
Something weird this way comes
Long time right?
Long time...
I... could write about... a lot of things, but I'm too slow for doing it. Many things in mind, thats mostly a problem, and I guess it's being a problem now (old news, exciting huh?). But I... don't know.
I then write about the thing that did most part of the job of leaving me like this. It's so strange the way people behave... ain't it?
How could they see the eye of the hurricane...? At the eye things are calm, around it, it's hell.
Hurricane... we are like that.
Anyway, this is ridiculous, there's no reason to get so crazed about it. It was just a word, damn it.
Perhaps that's a good thing, I just need to calm down. This is just the beginning of something wicked...
Perhaps I'll break the Law of Greater Hostility.
Long time...
I... could write about... a lot of things, but I'm too slow for doing it. Many things in mind, thats mostly a problem, and I guess it's being a problem now (old news, exciting huh?). But I... don't know.
I then write about the thing that did most part of the job of leaving me like this. It's so strange the way people behave... ain't it?
How could they see the eye of the hurricane...? At the eye things are calm, around it, it's hell.
Hurricane... we are like that.
Anyway, this is ridiculous, there's no reason to get so crazed about it. It was just a word, damn it.
Perhaps that's a good thing, I just need to calm down. This is just the beginning of something wicked...
Perhaps I'll break the Law of Greater Hostility.
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