Missing

So, I guess that, for the first time of my life (or at least the first time in a long time), I felt like missing family and friends...
I know, this doesn't sound very sensitive, and if you are actually in any of those two fields, let me explain. Not that it will actually make it better, but ok, let's get going.
It's not bad really, I mean, even though it's something that resembles pain, it feels good because you think that in a matter of time you will be close to those people again. And you feel you care for some people after all, or you just miss having people to talk, well, let's stick to the first option.
But I can't describe very well how it feels anyway, so I just expect it to be the fact that I miss those people. I didn't feel this way toward them on previous travels, maybe because I always took something related to them with me, and as long as I have one single token related to them, I don't really miss anything, which is something weird in fact, but, that's not a problem.
And I'm actually happy to know that I'll meet them soon, and then I'll miss Germany. I like this place, guess it's normal not to have many contacts on a place where they don't speak the same language you speak, so it was something expected.
The sweet scent of Germany...

In Germany

Feeling strange, aren't ya?
Kinda... and I don't think that this was caused by sleeping on the wrong time.
That's pretty obvious...
You think I should quit watching these things?
Well, why exactly?
Because mostly when it ends I stay like this...
And do you know why?
Maybe because... it makes me think, and it shouldn't... because, thinking is dangerous as far as we know.
It's only dangerous when you use it against yourself.
Am I using it like that right now?
Maybe.
It could also be that recurrent topic right?
There's a high probability, or the other recurrent topic, well, which is which?
Let's say I'm talking about number 1, the one related to the magic, and you're talking about number 2, related to nostalgy.
Okay then, but, isn't the one related to nostalgy also related to magic?
Well yes, but...
Let's just say number 1 is related to social. I guess that sets them apart.
So, higher chances of number 1 or 2?
2.
How higher than number 1?
That's something that we can't express in numbers. You know that, like fear and... most human things. Oh, and I know you thought "most insignificant things" right now.
Well, who cares anyway...
And you still don't know whether it's 1 or 2 right?
Yes, but we might be facing another masquerade situation here.
So, you're hiding the fact that you know, even from yourself?
That's a possibility.


So, no progress so far right?
Hell yeah...
Fuck that shit... let's just have fun tomorrow.

Tear

1 year...
Sorry.