Rising

I feel so fucking afraid.
It's ridiculous.
I'm not letting fear win, not this time. But yet I feel so useless when facing the situation. And I'm aware I shouldn't be feeling like this, whatever choice I make there are good consequences.
But the fear of not making the best choice... that's fucking sick.
Gotta go ahead, I can't keep on complaining, even if it gives this powerless feeling. I can do better than this... I've proved it before and I can do it again, as many times as it becomes necessary...
But why does it feel easier if there's someone by my side...?