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My, my... look who's here...
Cut the crap Helz.
What? You come back to visit us after so long, yet you don't even greet us?
You know why I've came back.
Of course, who doesn't? You only visit us when there's hard work to do, and we even know what is this work, don't you find it funny that you need those whom you hate in order to proceed?
I ain't here to chat with you.
I don't give a shit, why do you think we are here to serve you anytime you want? I thought you could learn how to deal with things after some time, but you still haven't grown up, have you?
What is your price?
My price? This ain't about fucking prices now, my friend. We ain't helping you this time, you dug your own grave, why should we take you out of it if all you seem to want is suffering?
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And if you stay here for more than enough for getting out, I can only assure you that you will find what you're looking for. You started it all, once again, deal with it.


I can remember the day that door closed. And I knew that from that moment on, I was alone. There wasn't any other being in this world that could come to the rescue. There was no rescue. I delved into darkness, running from what I once had called hope. We should always know where are we entering, but we can't.
I admit I'm to blame, in many parts of this freaky situation. We cannot believe others will always be there fighting for us. We cannot trust those who are unworthy of it. We cannot depend solely on the evil side. There are many other things we have to avoid doing in order to keep the peace. But I stupidly just went for what I wanted.
And then I got what I deserved for breaking the rules. I suppose this one is weirder than the usual weirdness, but I just beg you keep on reading. I can't say it won't be long, I can just ask you to stay.
I guess we are most sane when we get to face the facts and admit our mistakes. I hate apologizing so I can just say that it was a mistake to blame you for this. You were just being yourself and that's normal. Also, perhaps I should have found a better way to tell you this, but I guess that chatting would just scare you and that's not my intention.
Even though I guess it can frighten you anyway, so this is for hoping you forgive me someday.
The whole situation seems a bit ridiculous, looks like sometimes the powers that be like to mess with the circumstances. So, by looking around in order to find interesting people I bumped into you, and since you seemed to be interesting and also didn't bother about my presence, I thought I should just remain talking. Had I known things would turn out like this, I wouldn't have continued. Or maybe not.
So slowly I created this link with you. I was captivated by your creations, and the way you spoke. Your ideas and thoughts, it was somewhat unreal to believe someone could carry such and also be so confident and shy. Day by day, I was amazed by what I discovered about you.
But, in the end, I came to note that all these amazing things had a bad side. I had developed some ''feeling'' that should not exist. And I understand how ridiculous that will look to you. But I guess this was the best way I found to get this out. About that question, I'm still confused, I don't think it would be better to live without neglecting what I feel, because there are some things I don't like to feel, like this one. Because, of all the possibilities, why should it be you? I don't even actually know you. And yet I get happy by just talking to you. I guess this troubles some things.
Sometimes I just hate being different, but that's the way I am. I could just say something very stupid and then you would go away. I had this chance many times and I just kept on being the silly me.
Sooner or later there will be more people commenting on your creations and saying good things about them, I'm sure. Then I guess it's time for me to move on, perhaps disappear for a while. I never really said much about this, since I believe you already have enough people for doing it, but you're dazzling beautiful, both physically and personally.
Lastly, I would just like to ask you no to stop being so sweet, even though guys like me will appear here and there. That's one of your biggest qualities and it shouldn't be some weirdos the reason for changing it.